Are you ever going to get this right? I dunno, I can’t see the future nor can I determine how much self control, discipline and awareness you may have going forward.
So let’s jump in. First off, stop trying to defend why your interest is solely in “Asian” type women. Everyone has preferences and its your life, so you are allowed the choice. Yes, eliminating other types of women means you loses opportunities you could have had – but that’s common sense and you can choose to accept that or adapt, up to you. No judgement either way from me.
Now more specific to this situation, you know you made some mistakes. Question is, do you know WHY you made those mistakes? You should – and its referenced at the start of this reply. You are not in control of yourself – because you see her as “so damn cute” and she is your prize that you seem to want to win. Even your question of what do to over the break shows it – does it even make sense to try to pursue– and the answer is no, not currently. Once you have your head on straight, then possibly it can be fine to open the door – but NOT to “pursue”.